One of my worries as I was coming out was all the material I read about abandon young men by their families living on the streets and used for sex and most heavily involved in drugs mostly through use of needles.
Another was the fact the average gay relationship was 18 months, yes 18 months. I rarely spoke to anyone about that but I worried so much. It was a world I was afraid of, but venturing on! There was no turning back!
I believe I have always been lucky with some kind of spiritual (angel) protecting me. I often speak angels are amongst us but I mean something I can't explain, I believe watches over me. Sometimes I feel it! When I am bad or good it’s there. It allows me to try and learn but always makes sure I end up on the good side of things.
I can't say I am proud of what I have done in the lat almost 12 years and I will not apologize for what I may do in the next decade or two! However I have always believed in balance! Maybe it was my upbringing, maybe it was my mentors, maybe it was my angel or maybe it's those angels around me, but I always snap back to reality.
We all enjoy a little escape and don't get me wrong at times I want to hide for days if not weeks! But I have this marvelous man in my life and these wonderful people that check on me once and a while and I deeply appreciate that.
I never had a need for rehab, but unfortunately see that in my community! I see the reasons why! Children not loved and abandoned are so venerable by older men who use and abuse them until another comes along. Most confuse that for love and either end up dead or in rehab.
It is unfortunate! But for my blog readers I want you all to know that is you find yourself in this situation, ROB AND I ARE HERE TO HELP!
We have helped some and lost a few, but we continue to make sure every young man can be as successful as we have been even with difficult times. I dedicate this to a man who was there for me long time ago, John Castro!
Dr Q
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