Monday, April 9, 2012

"If only you knew mom"!


Patti La Belle one of the greatest singers ever to exist and someone I would love to meet sings a song by that title! Sometimes we wait too long to say "if only you knew", how much I love you!

It doesn't matter today how often I remember telling my mom "how much I loved her" it seems it wasn't enough! Its that feeling I am dealing with today! We say "I love you so quickly that do we actually listen and siphon the words "I LOVE YOU"!

"I", you're persona, you're entity, you're heart you're being , yes I loved you mom!

"Love", this is used so frequently we forget what love truly means! Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil, but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. This is familiar to all believers and non-believers!

Love is like air. You can't see it, but you can feel it. But more importantly, LOVE makes that person important and it's absence unbearable! This is why humans have difficulty losing someone they love. A piece of themselves is missing! They are never whole again!

"You", well you is an individual! A special love designed, nurtured, practiced for that entity! Usually another human, but can be a pet or just about anything living you have become attached to. However in a human sense, it takes greater meaning !You yes, just you!

And so today , I can't stop thinking, did my mother "know just how much she meant to me"!

I left her February 2nd, I kissed her, said I LOVE YOU as usual never anticipating as I looked in the rear view mirror as she went with her walker to get the mail, that it would be my last view of the woman that meant the world to me!

My mom was more than a mom! She was my dad and my friend! My mother knew things about me I have yet to discover! 

With my mom went tradition, values, virtue, unconditional love, wisdom and my very close friend.

For some reason, I needed to tell you that today Mom!

Chat soon,

You're son! Dr Q

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